Harbinger

Received sad news today. Pastor Frietz R. Tambunan passed away.

As much as I hated going to church (boredom would strike me like a surge),
I would try to listen to his homilies.
And pay attention to the substantives.

He's one of the smartest men I know.
Very knowledgeable, his words I would borrow.

He also helped me become the debater I am-- was.
For a lot of my arguments, were once on his jaws.

Can I just skip 2020?
Fork, I hate this year.
Bad news are aplenty.
What a beach of a harbinger.

inception

hujamkanlah pedangmu itu
dalam menusuk dadaku
demikian juga dengan pedasnya
kata-katamu nan jumawa

kau yang sadis
kau yang senang ketika aku meringis
dan tawamu yang menggelegar ketika aku menangis
kegagalanku kau anggar
kesuksesanku kau buat seakan tawar
kau mengecapku mujur
tak berhak atas nama yang masyhur
kau meyakinkan semuanya
menunjukku dengan tajamnya
meyakinkan seluruh dunia
"nilainya tak sebanding dengan harganya!"
suaramu yang mengkikik
tidakkah kau sadar, ada yang sedang berbisik?
bahwa akulah yang lebih licik?
aku memberikanmu sebuah obyek
obyek untuk kau ejek
dan obyek ini di luar kuasamu, lek
karena kau tak memiliki kontrol
di sanalah baru kau dibanderol
jadi sadar bahwa kaulah yang tolol
tak bisa kau jatuhkan aku, lol
hanya dengan penistaan yang getol
ya, kan, kontol
aku yang akan menjatuhkanku
bukan kau
karena seiring dengan waktu
telatlah baru tersadarku
.....
ternyata, kau, adalah dunia itu

#2019gantipresiden

Why so serious? Toh kalau 2019 nanti gagal ganti presiden, 2024 mau ga mau ya pasti tetap bakalan ganti toh?

Oh, and, by the way, I found a similarity between the Texans and the ta'aruf #indonesiatanpapacaran movement:
On one hand, the Texans go "shoot first, ask questions later"
On the other hand, the movement goes "get married first, ask questions later"

I Invite You To Chant with Me: I REFUSE TO ACCEPT YOUR REALITY!

Friend, I feel your agony.
When any attempt, any struggle, on this query
be regarded as blasphemy.

The world. They think it has control over this serendipity.
But all plans they have, turn out to just be diabolic strategy.
And yet it's for the best, claimed their testimony.
It's for the interest of the majority.
Fuck that! I know, it's bullshit! I understand thee!

Futile be your melee.
And failure seems to occur frequently.
For it seems even God is your enemy.
Like there's no way to escape this jeopardy.
But is your only option to succumb to catastrophe?

They can control all! But not the entirety.
For your will is still in your weaponry!
And for the adage in our dictionary:
Fear the man who has nothing, really.

They can control all, but not your body!
They dominate the battlefield, but not until your territory!
THAT'S why they tryhard to put you in misery.

So when the whole world seems to commit to this fuckery,
I invite you all to come and chant with me:
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT YOUR REALITY.

I can't achieve victory.
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THIS REALITY.

I somehow could never live healthily.
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THIS REALITY.

I simply can't compose that melody.
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THIS REALITY.

I can't win against that fag with this jury.
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THIS REALITY.

I would never be able to reach mastery.
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THIS REALITY.

I can't write a poem with intensity.
I REFUSE TO ACCEPT THIS REALITY.

For I control my own destiny.
And that bitch fate? You can't force me to agree.

you cant have it all

in this life, sacrifices will have to be made.

choose your tributes carefully, my friend.


sacrifice time for health
but sacrifice health for knowledge

sacrifice speed for flexibility

sacrifice money for friendship

but sacrifice friendship for integrity

sacrifice quantity for quality

sacrifice sex for love
sacrifice love for god
but sacrifice god for future

Antagonist

dunia ini adalah dunia yang unik
kaya akan segala polemik
dont you think?

sarkas, ya, baik
tapi tak bisa kau tampik
susah hidup kalau kau masih berfisik

cobalah kau tilik
budaya dunia yang jijik
di setiap tempat, di semua bilik
setiap tingkah, setiap gerak gerik
mana ada yang tidak terbalik?

dengan tingkat kesulitan yang apik
dan sedikit bumbu drama yang terpercik
siapa yang masih bisa berkutik?
sosial bercampur dengan politik
tiada aspek bebas, semua tercabik

karena kau yang asli pasti akan dikritik
yang tulen akan jadi korban intrik
tidak akan ada yang bajik

mereka semua palsu, dasar taik
katanya sih adaptasi, kita harus cerdik
pilih dan gunakan mimik
tapi itu kan alasan klasik
tidak menyelesaikan konflik

ketika kepalsuan ini monopolistik
bukankah harus ada energi kinetik?
yang mengontrol hal ini yang karsinogenik
mengembalikan jiwa nativistik

nah ini malah terbalik
pembiaran seakan direstui, nyamik
bukankah dia sang mekanik?

aku pun berkata dengan kedik
kepada sang khalik
kau adalah pencipta yang munafik
titik

Your Ex

Well, I'm feeling like writing something.
So here goes:

In love, remember the memories. Not the departure.